positive feeling???

a new sensation.. one i don't totally understand.. all the chips are falling into place....

Current Music: Silent Lucidity, Queensryche.

two souls converging into a single destiny...

today i got a sign that everything i'm planning is right... job interview next friday nigara falls.. sometimes it's good to go home... these are the things that matter.. nothing else.. follow your heart and do the right thing.. in that rest self assured...

Current Music: You Could be Mine, GNR

California...

good riddance to bad rubbish.. trust no one.. cuz i know yer lying... and the only person that wouldn't be able to do california is yourself...you'd lose yourself.. whatever is left of you... you've stripped yourself so bare do you really know where your soul is anymore? you're so embroiled in the darkness i can't find you anymore.. how can you find yourself?

Current Music: The Headless Children,W.A.S.P.

Bored...bored...board...

looks like i'm doing some kind of hamilton centric project for this stupid hitory project... well it's the place i know the history of best... might as well do something there or lundys... the teacher is kinda of a putz.. remind you of any other teacher's we know?
lots of good looking girls tho.. big boobies... enjoying my patheticx little life.. starting to move crap towards st. cath... can't wait to get out of this shithole city and back to another shithole city... i guess this is enufff rambling for one day...

Current Mood: Go Fuck Yourself.
Current Music: the trees(live), Rush.

back in black...

had a good weekend away.. no tantrums this time.. we hung out and he got xmas present's late.. never seen a happier kid... had pizza... well he had pizza i had crust.... note to self.. buy a bag of pepporni's next time.... hung out with joe it was alright... i think i'm really gonna like living in st. cath this time.. hobby shop for trains downtown and a comic book store with a huge quarter bin... should be cool and will keep my intrests high.. i never bothered exploring the city the last time.. distracted... should be an interesting year...

Current Mood: Really Fucking Happy (first time in a long time)
Current Music: Coma, Gun's And Roses.

one more day....

still waiting on my loan....
doesn't seem like i can catch a break this week.. hopefully my loan will come in tommorow and all will be good in the world..
i'm getting really sick of noodles and soap.. gotta buy groceries and spending all my time at the university and watching movies becuz i have nothing better to do...
man my life has taken a decidely boring turn of late.. but that's probaly a good thing.. time to grow up...material things are meaningless... they just end up being thrown away...



Current Mood: not happy
Current Music: Hallowed be My name, Alice Cooper.

Embrace the Negativity.

i did i'm much happier now.. when you face the bleak face of the other half of thirty and stop pretending to be 17 maybe then you'll face responsibilty and stop playing games...


Current Music: Dust and Bones, Gun's and Roses.

Murder-go -round.

i feel like taking a hatchet and chopping some skulls off at an amusement park...
weary soul.. lying cocksucker...


Current Mood: pissed off and Hungry
Current Music: Used to love Her, Gun's and Roses.

Addicted To Chaos

Only yesterday they told me you were gone
All these normal people, will I find another
one?
Monkey on my back, Aching my bones
I forgot you said "One day you'll walk alone"
I said I need you, does that make me wrong?
Am I a weak man, are you feeling strong?
My heard was blackened, It's bloody red
A hole in my heart, a hole in my head?
Who will help me up?
Where's the helping hand?
Will you turn on me?
Is this my final stand?
In a dream I cannot see
Tangled abstract fallacy
Random turmoil builds in me
I'm addicted to chaos
Lights shined on my path,
Turn bad days into good
Turn breakdowns into blocks, I smashed 'em
Cause I could
My brain was Labored, My head would spin
Don't let me down, don't give up, don't give in
The rain comes down, cold wind blows
The plans we made are back up on the road
Turn up my collar, welcome the unknown
Remember that you said
"One day you'll walk alone"

Look At Your Game Girl

There's a time for living
Time keeps on flying
Think you're loving baby
But all your doing is crying

Can you feel
Are those feelings real
Look at your game, girl
Look at your game, girl

What a mad delusion
Living in that confusion
Frustration and doubt
Can you ever live without the game

The sad, sad game
Mad game
Just to say loves' not enough
If it can't be true
Oh, you can tell those lies baby but you're only fooling you


Can you feel
I know those feelings ain't real
Then you better stop trying
Or you're gonna play crying
Stop trying
Or you're gonna play crying
Stop trying

That's the game
Sad sad game
Mad game
Sad game


Thanks, Chas
Jack

bored.. broke...

goddamn it where's my fucking osap already....
gotta eat at mcdonalds.. yuck....
anyone wanna buy some cd's?

07 January 2006 @ 10:40 pm

Hey Fuck...
i am looking for a hand to the gentlemen attending Windsor....uh, can you hook me up with some guidance...serious ...

st. ca$herines.

back in town since last night.. saw a very happy lil man glad to see daddy today...
actuaslly thinking coming back to this cesspool might actually be a good career move... gotta think of what's important... thinking about doing master's in history at brock or laurier but i doubt it... prety sure i'm done school forever... i have everything i want.. and/or need.

boredom?

you must live a boring life because i write more thaqn you about nothing and my life is a million miles more interesting even when i'm doing nothing but hanging with freinds... you do remeber what those are right?

crappy new years.

in welland now spent the last two weeks in brantford and then st. catherines.
god dammit i can't wait to be finished university. got a C in howsam's class and i thought i would fail.. guess that's good... was left alone for xmas and told stop harrassing... that won't be soon forgotten... a few more days and i'm back to school woohoo... can't belive i'm actually looking forward to moving back to welland.
later.