Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

wow.. can you lie anymore? you've made a habit of backstabbing people forever... of course then agian... i don't count... i'm only the father of our son... it's not like you've spent five years stabbing me in the back.

wow.. doesn't take much to set me off does it.. thanks for impliening what you did... it's not like i would ever do that.. but of course you think so.... days like today make me so angry.. i mean i'm trying so hard.. it's not worth it anymore. i quit.

i am coming to the realization that i don't belong in windsor... finish up this year and school and get out... i've been gone so long that i couldn't even tell you where home is anymore. is it hamilton or niagra.. not sure.. i know where i'm going... guess you'll have to find out later... just feel so out of place here... it's ghetto... stifiled. nothing to do here... same thing every day school homework movie ..... my life is getting very monotounous. at least before this semseter i always had something going on with my life but i've managed to pretty much alienate everyone and everything because of concerns elsewhere. there's always my weekends but i just don't seem to have time for anyone anymore... guess thats appro... i'm getting older.. there's only one person in this world that deserves my undivided attention.. i know my freinds are.. they'll understand... and if they don't fuck em.

halloween fast approaching... interesting life lately... actually have money but haven't bothered spending any of it lately... think it has something to do with being responsible... can't act like a twelve year old anymore... not to mention i don't want to move more crap... speaking of which anyone want some vhs videos? i should put up a list here or somewhere... i think it's time to buy some shave gel... the beard is starting to get heavy.. gonna keep the goatee tho.... says something about indepence.. dammit.. i really need to learn how to spel... i went to unimaversity for my edumaction.

i'm kinda lost when it comes to english. it's not my strongest subject.. never was in high school and i've advoided it like the plaugue in post secondary college and university. kinda funny seeing how the mother of my son teaches english at the highschool level but ah well. what wopuld i like to learn in this course? how to refine my skills. if i can use my essays and paper's to get a better job or something slightly diffrent job than the one i'm trained for but still in my sector i think that would be really cool. i have a contact at the children's advocate in toronto and they need a portfolio so i may end up doing a professional looking portfolio for them.. might as well do it now before i ger to frustrated in looking for a job while trying to raise my son on weekends right?

my first post.. might as well do what i'm good at... poetry. we all make our own truths sometimes we have to deal with misplaced reality, sometime we dont want to hear the words being said. are you still angry, cuz i can't see the line's of hope drawn in yer face. are you still angry, cuz i can't see the line's of hope drawn in yer face. A Reflection of Me ------------------ fall down, dont get up, best place for you to be a lost child, do i scare you?a reflection of me growing inside u, i am dead inside, i bet you know how that feels, what was taken from us was nothing, what was taken from us was something,lacerated sky,what was taken from us was hope, we continue our lives and try to forget, i see you ina mirror every morning, apiece of my soul, a part of my past, a reflection of me, do u see the same thing too? -end this bridge, this dream this music, this scene only one thing missing it seems, hold it tight as it fades in my hands, keep moving ,keep booting, i c