I don't make life changes or choices rashly, not anymore. But there has to be an end to misery sometime, maybe we made a long term somewhere. Maybe we need to correct that. I'm just sick of you being sad. There is too much in your and his life that I have been sheltered from, but there are things that wouldn't have happened on my watch as well. That was denied me. I'm starting to understand some of the deeper reasons why. I don't have the answers. But I am starting to understand some of the fucking questions and why external factors that created our end. The issue was never me. It still isn't me. I'm just wandering thru life trying to do the right thing. For me that includes my little family. I don't know where we stand. There are illusions that don't make sense. All I know is I'm trying to do the right thing. Even if it leads to failure, im prepared for that. Second chances don't come around all that often. I suggest you take ...
When other names that should be long buried keep creeping into our current rather than being part of our history its time to move on. These things should be history. We need to move on. We have been stuck in the same places for far far too fucking long. It has been a long time since I have gone from crisis to crisis. My life is at peace because I stopped chasing things. There is a reason for that. Our lives are complicated. We are complicated, but I never had any concerns that external forces would attempt to destroy us. I wish I had seen all that coming. None of it has ever made any sense. Once upon a time we were pure. You and me agianst the world. Now it kind of has to be, you and me and him agianst the world. I'm sick of fighting. I just want the three of us to have some sort of peace. Together or not. Minus my loved ones I am sick of a city and region that I am only a constant visitor in. Why the hell my name, and its not even my name is still spoken when I left the ci...