Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

just because i'm happy and being nice to you doesn't mean i trust you... i got what i wanted for the near future but you are predictable... i've seen your behavior before... but ya.. i'm pretty fucking happy with my plans for the long weekend... things are coming along nicely.. somethimes a drastic change to fuck up the status quo is what's needed... it get's people to reevaluate things and grow the hell up.. plus in the long run it's the right decidion maybe if i had done it sooner and held my ground around some of the people i claim to care about and vice versa it would have been an intersting if not better last two years. but today.. is a good day... Current Mood: Happy.

i feel like fucking ranting about everything and nothing today.. obviously my life is so pathetic i have nothing to do but plan it a few weeks ahead of time and pester people that actually might be doing the right thing for once.. but that concept would never fuckin occur to me.. i don't have the intelligence for it... not all of us have the summer off... i'm fucking busy.. leave me alone. man i fucking hate it when people waste my time. have a nice day everyone. current mood: Annoyed.

i'm busy.. get over yourself. i'll get back to you when i have a minute to breathe.

you don't change the shit you've pulled by putting together a nice little email and pretending like you didn't fuck me over. you have responsibilties as do I. i'm trying to do the right thing and i don't appreciate you playing fucking games. i don't answer to you... and i make my own rules. this isn't about either one of our selfish desires... as soon as you realize it's gotta be about something more maybe we will have peace between us but i doubt it.. you are too fucking immature. i used to think love was a good thing... The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy also talks about love. It says, "Avoid if at all possible." current mood: Fucking shitty.

it's a better day a few hours later.. actually talking to the people that can help you instead of people who are just middle men... dealing with people like that can drive you insane... being honest with the right people is a better way of dealing with everything. current mood: Happier.

nice to see how even when i get everything together i'm getting fucked over by authority.. why the hell did i come back to this shit hole city? there's nothing fucking here... it's a black hole of despiar.. i hate it.. might as well face facts tho.. there's nothing else out there anywhere for me to be these days.. gotta do the right thing and hope it all works out. at least this time around there's some fucking prospects for employment here... Current Mood: Annoyed.

esp. lawyers and the court houses... it seems i'm going around in circles with these fuckers... no one wants to give me an answer.. fucking retarded.. there are other ways of dealing with things.. but fuck it... i'm trying to do the right thing... really getting to the fucking point where i want to give up.. and having these roadblocks in my way after everything i've been through really pisses me off. Current Mood: Hostile.

closing down your blog because of me... how cute.. you're fucking amusing... get a fucking life... i am a part of your life whether or not you or I fucking like it... you can't post and cry and whine because of me.. you're a paranoid little bitch who needs to stop thinking about yourself and stop playing the spoiled little daddies girl and do what's right for who's really important... of course you and growing up are two mutaually exclusive terms. whatever, go fuck yourself, i was sick of yer internet whine fests anywhere. Current Mood: happy

...was a good day. guess who i ran into @ the mall? anyways things are looking up.. looks like i'm staying in st. cath for the duration woo hoo...it's gonna be good. i wouldn't rule out a return to court in the near future however.. contempt sucks, Current Mood:Optimistic.

this latest turn of events isn't surprising but is cruel and unusual... i cannot wait to see how things follow thru.. i don't like mindgames, i never have.. i am straightforward and i'm still getting fucked over. you know for everything positive i try and do in this world i go two steps back, maybe it's time to go back to a 1994 mentality and only care about myself.. it would probaly work out better for me... wish i was still that person but i'm not. there are responsibilties now... but i'll deal with them, i made a big change in my life for a reason and i'm gonna kick some ass this summer.. better now than let it drag me down for another year. Current Mood:Pissed.