Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

it's a fun combanition. fucking lawyer fucking me up the ass... i'm not fucking happy at the moment.. i just want to take off and go back to Windsor... maybe i should just sell off and pack everything up and and Head to L.A. like i wanted to.... fucking world is an ashtray and i'm the ciggarette butt. i can't breathe, smoke, or drink at the moment... and only one thing is preventing me from kicking someones door in at the current moment. i can hardly fucking breathe... sleeping is a fucking chore....i'm watching my whole life go to shit... oh wait.. it can't get any worse than it already was.. maybe i could get myself arrested agian and go on vacation for a while... knowing me they'd declare me insane this time... i wouldn't blame them... of course you're always gonna be the bonnie to my clyde.. too bad you can't see clearly. Current Mood: what part of Pissed off and sick can't you read? Current Music: Unholy, KISS.

could Brantford ever be more boring? at least this week i have lots of time to think.. and might be able to get my guitar from windsor somehow soon.

.. and go figure i have to sit on it until the end of the month because of prior commiments out of town... well at least i get a vacation. Current Mood: Apathy Current Music: Thirteen, Johnny Cash

the weekend sucked... i didn't get anything done.. opened up your old poetry book and tried to remeber a better time when we were both happy.. the reflections only gave me a small sparkle of hope when most of those memories where just misery... we weren't any better off back then... nostaligia counts for shit... i mean the same nightmares i have now i had then.. you only amplified them 100%.. figures... at least back then i was young... now i'm just broken down.... no where to go.. no where to be... and i hate this fucking city. Current mood: Annoyed by the world. Current music: Fall to Peices, Velvet Revolver.

it's friday.. meaning that the same bullshit i've been dealing with for months i have to deal with agian.... this has gotta fucking end soon... i'm losing patience... getting militant agian... so anyways i did good with the website designed 19/25 even if the links don't work. pretty happy now i just wanna finish the exam and be done... hopefully something changes.... a change of scenery next week is gonna do me some good. pretty fucking happy about the homework. spent the night last night cleaning the house... little one's room is prestine agian... i'm gonna leave it be for him.. that's his private space... i just gotta get a DVD player for my room. anyways i'll keep you updated on my weekend.. i don't expect to be in a good mood in the morning... unless there is a god. (which i doubt) Current Mood: Content Current Mood: Bitch's Ain't shit, Dr. Dre

today is a much better day. some buisness deals are going thru as planned. may get my new tattoo sunday... getting rid of crap around the house so i have more room for me and the boy. christmas is coming and everything is looking good... got some interesting things in the can.. hopefully i'll have a job soon.. the whole lousy month is behind me i just gotta get a hold of some of the things i'm doing... should be an interesting month... hopefully by the end of the month things will be better and back to normal. Current Mood: Happy, well as much as i can be. Current Music: Mister Superstar, Marilyn Manson.