Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

had a good weekend and we had fun, he won a nemo at the carnival..... i am finding out that i am only really living for the weekends these days... One year later after leaving university and i'm still in the emotional maelstrom i was a year ago... it seems there is nothing out there.. maybe it's time for another lifestyle change agian, hopefully i can get something for the summer and relocate. Current Mood: Distant.

Interview In Hamilton Tommorow, i am looking upon the decimated remainders of my life and noticing that almost a year ago july 3rd i made the wrong Decision. i should have not chosen st. catherines as the next place to live... there is absolutley nothing here for me but that which matters most... but weekends aren't enough.. i can't be a bystander to my own life passing me by.. i need to be active and enjoy it... not be a borg drone watching my life pass me by... i am in the process of making decisons in my life that may change everything... if i can leave town Asap i am doing it, Never wanted to put down roots anyways until i was forced to. Current Mood: Apathy Current Music:À Tout Le Monde (2007), Megadeth http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FhAdjEvyWEk

the circus was fun. certian behaviors of certian immature adults are becoming suspect however... that's ok.. it's always a gamble when you go to the Casino. Current Mood: Still Annoyed. Current Music: This Flight Tonight, Nazareth

todays horrorscope: Instead of spending money on frivolous items today, buy something that's an investment in your future. It'll pay off in the end. and you wanna know what's funny.. i actually have Money. going to the circus this weekend woohoo... Current mood:happy. Current Music: I love it loud, Kiss.

had a awesome weekend. little bit of the one day flu for both of us but nothing a little water and sleep couldn't kick. loved the new dinosaurs... nothing like a temple or two that blows up when you press a button... the attitude is lessening from other parties, hopefully something good comes of this weeks interviews... thinking of going to the circus this weekend... we shall see... Current Mood: upbeat. Current music: You're Crazy, GNR.

so anyways.. freedom from slavery agian... but i'll get something at least for the summer... tons of interviews agian.. but i'd rather flip burgers or go to manpower than have to deal with that horseshit for minumum wage.. i need secruity... i can leave st. catherines for that.. i do not need to be here... i miss windsor... if thinks get FUBAR for the summer here i can always go couch hopping with REAL freinds up in Windsor, Honestly but for one reason am regretting leavin windsor... things were better there... my life sucks here... i'm sick of trying. Current Mood: Not happy. Current Music: Used to love her, GNR.

nothing like having the feeling your foreman is trying to convince you to quit when he knows it's not likely he can fire you. work hard? work so damn hard my feet and finger's bleed. i like the job but the politics and bullshit are getting to me already, if this crap wasn't so damn important i would leave... st. catherines, Ontario all of it... i should have went to victoria and went to university and pulled a disapeering act afterwords... i'd have a better job in windsor or anywhere else i tell you that... i fucking hate it here... the minute i can leave i will.... keep looking for a real job and not this shit. Current Mood: tired, pissed Off, angry. Current Music: Disaccotative, Marilyn Manson.

it get's easier and harder all at the same time... might go to the circus on father's day... haven't decided... i am starting to realize what my father has been doing all these years with his work schedule... so much for cable i fall alseep watching tv all the time now... Current Mood: Tired. Current Music: Yesterdays, GNR

the most important things in life are free, like a childs smile and when he's happy. Current Music: enlightened. Current Music: My Little Man, Ozzy.

it's getting easier.. and dirtier... got covered in soot and dirt today... not complianing... it's not about me... i'll eventually get another job but this one will do for the moment.... as long as i visulaize what's important when i'm getting down in the monotony... reptetive tasks are so much fun... but i'm getting better at it.... and it is giving me my indepence from all the fuckers that were tugging on my fucking coattails... i prefer doing things on my own.... has something to do with the upbringing or lack thereof i guess.. Current Mood: sweaty, Dirty and i've already showered... bath tonight. Current Music: Nothern lights, Hole.

i would die if i couldn't come home from fucking work after being in airwalks for 8 hours and switch to my air cushioned souls... man my feet hurt... the new airwalks are good and broken, almost as broken as someone else i know... the job is growing on me... it's a paycheck and it's close... the work is getting easier... but i still look forward to the end of the day... now to settle some bullshit in my personal life and get a better job in my feild and i'll be game... Current Mood: Is Hot a Fucking Mood? Current Music: Astronomy, Metallica.