Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

I don't have time for political nonsense over fuckin toys, I have real issues and real interesting things to do in my life. Every time I have a fucking tinge of regret about quitting the toy game, some asshat reminds me how worthless dealing with the Toronto area toy scene and the clique is. I don't fucking miss it. I could have attended the entire con and had some fun but I'm sick of dealing with the politics. It's easier to not bother and focus on the other things in my life. For the most part I hated when I was involved in it, why the hell should be any different now. Some of these people whose whole life is this plastic junk are pathetic. Me it's just something hidden in my closet that once in a while is neat to add to when I have a few extra bucks. But the reality is that they are fuckin toys, for children and I'm not going to play political games with grown ups over this crap. It's in my rear view mirror for a reason. But I won't complain about go

I get to do things that make me happy. It sucks that's he's not here at my side, but his absence does mean I stop living. I still have good friends and I enjoy myself. I just wish on some of these adventures he was by my side. I love my family and freinds that enable me to do cool things like having great seats at Metallica at skydome last night, and I've completely lost my voice screaming along.. Worth it, I might hurt all over but last night was worth it!!! These are experiences that would only be made better by having things be better. But it was an incredible night and probably a highlight of my life. I can deal with the lack of a voice for a few days. I appreciate the freinds that helped me get there too on Saturday!!! It was an amazing weekend. I have some great people in my life... I gotta remember that more often when I'm darkness and despair and anger mode... There are times in the darkness where there is light and happiness. Current Mood: Happy

You've wounded me. I give you full marks for that. But, like the man said, what doesn't kill me... just makes me stronger. I did not start this war. But I will finish it. Figures, today it was a Paperwork snafu, No surprise there, not that i had any real time to prepare for those that have passed the buck... gotta love when it comes down to it, a little boys relationship with his father isn't worth spit to the professionals. Expected. there's only one voice speaking out for my son and that's me... and I'll keep coming.. if six years hasn't taught you anything or the 17 preceding that, it's the fact that I don't know how to fail, even in my deepest darkest doubts and despair, I'm still standing, still here fighting. I have no illusions that there is going to be a winning side to this, it's never going to end, not until my boy is a man, this will be drawn out another four years, as long as she can manipulate others... that's the game. e