Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

Our connection was like a hidden force pulling us towards one another, and resisting it took a strength that I didn’t know I could keep up for much longer. When you finally meet the right one for you, it suddenly becomes clear why everyone else was so wrong. Have you ever met someone and felt like you’ve known them forever? I am happy, I am In love and I am in a place where i never thought i'd be at this point of my life, the fact i have someone wonderful to spend my time and experiences with means more to me than you will ever know.. i have landed on a golden beach after being shipwrecked my entire life, I never knew that someone like you would still exist out there for me, i always thought at this stage of the game the best i could do would be to fucking settle.. it's too bad that word doesn't exist in my vocabulary and I don't settle for second best or for anything less than I deserve, I love you truly and completely and I am enjoying this trip that we are on n

With you, I am home. I Am Home, it's only for a limited moment for the moment but that may soon be changing as i'm trying to figure out the rest of my life... I can't live in a box for the rest of my life and that has been the status quo for the last year, speaking of status quo.. i have been in Hamilton for the last twelve fucking years which is the longest i have ever lived yet i have never pout down roots there the way i did here in Windsor and sadly in Niagara.. there has to be a reason for that? I know the city is dangerous and poison for me yet i am feeling stuck for a million fucking reasons.. it's time to make a major change in the next six months fuck the consequences...i haven't changed but my world has.. I am no longer comfortable there and there is someone I love elsewhere and i need to be closer to her at some point once we have it all figured out...i did my duty i stuck around till he was an adult even tho it caused plenty of fucking heartache and de