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Another day in which I should be happy but instead I'm mostly miserable, and there is only one fuckin reason for that, I should be In st. catherines right now enjoying my birthday with my son, To me otherwise this is just another fucking day... I've celebrated with friends already... real friends not some of these fair weather friends that haven't even noticed my birthday yet...once you get to a certain age with all the trials and tribulations you cease to give a shit... It's just another day on the calendar without him here... I'm really not excited, I don't give a damn... there's not much I can do in my life that I can control anymore... what I can affect I do, but sometimes i just feel like everything leads me no where and why do I bother trying... there is very little happiness in my life and way too much fucking conflict, ten years ago i was in a great mood and having a fucking blast with my life, what the fucking Hell changed... wait.. don't answer that. Happy Birthday, i guess..I'm just not feeling it yet... there is something missing, today more than ever... 3rd fucking birthday without him... fuck you Bitch.

Current Mood: Sad.
Current Music: Forgot About Dre, Dr. dre and Eminem
There comes a time, thief, when the jewels cease to sparkle, when the gold loses its luster, when the throne room becomes a prison, and all that is left is a father's love for his child.

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