.....Till All Are Gone! V

When a sinister person means to be your enemy, they always start by trying to become your friend.

There is a serious indicator of people in my life that need to take a fucking leap and get out of my life, this stupid toy selling crap is fucking done, i dislike waiting a fucking month on someone who owes me quite a bit of fucking money to dick around every week with some bullshit excuse about paying up for a unique item, especially when said unique item was one of the few things i was interested in keeping. starting to get really fed up with so called freinds, I can have an awesome day with family and be grateful for eveything i have and what i can appreicate then i get a fucking message online and ruins my entire fucking day, people seem to forget for good and bad this is currently my income and their are bills and responsibilities attached and i don't give away shit for free, it's even more annoying when this is a fucking pattern, just like the fucking thief in December. it's time to recover anything i fucking can and then be done with this, when something is making me miserable more constantly than i am ever seeing any happiness from it, it's time for the sake of my sanity to walk the fuck away. There is nothing more to gain from this shit....

Current Mood: Angry.
Current Music: Eminem, Legacy

Only people who're positive enough to have friends have enemies. When you're as glum and morose as he was, people just give up and go away.

There's ways you can trust an enemy you can't always trust a friend. An enemy's never going to betray your trust.

Friends never turn as enemies. If they did, they were never your friends at all.

It is a good man who stands up for his friends, but an honorable man who stands up for his enemies.

A doubtful friend is worse than a certain enemy. Let a man be one thing or the other, and we then know how to meet him.

Comments

The Laugh Track.

I want you in my life. Don't ever fucking confuse that for needing you in my life. Those two things are mutually exclusive to each other. I'm fine with my life and it's not my freind's and my social life that I'm jealous of. We both made our choices. My life has always been an insane carnival. You were merely an extended chapter. But if you think I'm going to sit at home being sad and depressed and shutting down because your not in my life. Your delusional. Then agian we already know this. If my life is going to be a sad comedy then I'll make it a metal massacre. I'm not sitting around waiting for anyone. The least of all you. I sacrificed enough time on the altar of what might have been. I'm just enjoying the time that we have left. This way if it go out, it's on my own terms. I always told you that my funeral pyre will be a blaze of glory.. I just never told you when. Now I'm gonna live and have adventures. Remain jealous. You know how ...

The Trees.

I am really bothered by someone hurting my tree. I’m not sure the next step but that’s a living thing. I know that there is no healing when our things are still affected negatively by people. I’m not sure what the next step is but I know this is part and parcel of the entire thing and that we can’t heal when people hurt the things we care about. I don’t have much but I do have a legacy to protect and there is a place where my son needs to feel safe, and I don’t think it will ever be that house agian. But once it was home, there are good memories there. There was love. Part of that is the peace that was our tree. I’m sick of people damaging the things I love. The world needs to be better and less selfish. I need peace in mine and her lives. Even if we are separate in our lives. She needs the peace and quiet I have in my life. Even more than I do. And only one of us has it.

Father and Son.

I dont know the next step. I don't claim to. I just know I'm working to rebuild a relationship that has been fractured for many years. That includes both of you. I am here. I will always be here, I have always been here that will never change This weekend was epic and it felt right. I don't know what will happen but i do know that I am at peace with being civil and polite with your mom. It was nice to have a little adventure as a family. It felt right. It what was missing in our lives. Thank you.

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