Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

And you’re in my life agian... I’m gonna stand my ground and see what come of it. But you are in my life and I will stand firm on what I want for the both of us. We’ve both made mistakes and both have regrets. But you’ve also hurt me for just attempting to keep my hand in the game. We may love each other but we damage each other too. That part isn’t forgotten easily. It’s a new year, we can start over and begin agian. And I will give you that. But this is is the last dance. I have nothing left to prove. But we have plenty to prove to each other. That’s where we stand right now.  I will always be here. That’s you’re promise but not without quarter. There will always be answers and I will always demand them. That’s where we stand now. That’s who I am now.  You are a part of my life and I want you to be more. But we both know it needs to be on my terms and not on your timeline. I don’t have any expectations or reasons to change anything right now. And while I know you are considering chan

My world has changed a lot. My responsibilities are different now but they still exist. It’s not the life I would have chosen. But it’s the life I have. I am happy. Things can be stressful especially when everything seems to happen at once. But it is the life I have chosen and I am enjoying the good moments. So I’ll take my responsibilities as they come. It’s not about me all the time. I’m not always happy but I’m always doing the right thing by the ones I love and the ones that I have stepped up to the plate to take responsibility for. I wish that someone else could have ever understood that when I was doing that for her. But that was another lifetime and a product of her choices. Now I do what I have to as a result of my choices. I’m glad I made them and I am glad my life has changed. It hasn’t been easy but it is recognized that I’m not worried about myself and what happens to me. I no longer have an endgame. I’m just seeking peace in this moment as long as I can find it. I sometime