Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

  You want revenge? Murder, death, sabatoge? That's easy. You want real revenge, become a better person, do more with your life,    do more than they ever could.    That's revenge. It’s been twelve years since you destroyed my heart, my career and everything that was important in my life. I can never forget that. Even if I have forgiven you, I have not forgotten that you have run interference in every aspect of my life over the last 23 years. The problem is I have never understood why? We broke, we drifted apart and never looked back and I accepted responsibility. But that was never good enough for you. I must have broken you’re heart in a past life or something because you have made this one hell. The problem is, I’m at peace and I’m happy place now and you need me as a player in you’re circus atmosphere of you’re life more than I will ever need you. You are a good teacher. You taught me what it was it was like to be strong on my own, alone. Multiple times.    A lesson you hav

  There was always something wrong with me. I accept that now. But the difference between me and you is that I admit that I’m a monster and no it wasn’t you that made me. You just perfected me and took away any soul that I had left at the time. You aren’t the only one in my life I am dead to. And not the only one that pretends I’m dead. That being said, I don’t need anyone in my life or out of its justification to have anything in my fucking life. I have walked away from everyone on my life before and there are times that I regret. Not continuing down my own road. My life Might have been different. It also may have been disaster and ruin, but I’ve done a great job of that anyways. Truth be told I don’t give a shit anymore to be anything to anyone. I have my own responsibilities and my own problems and right now I’m standing still for someone I love rather than moving on, And away. This is the last moment I allow status quo to rule my life. At this point in my life I only have time for