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Scarberia?

that would be really reaching into the past and bringing it full circle wouldn't it... it's an opening to a new window... the old bitternesses about toronto and the old freinds are gone.. it's time to start over somewhere a little more comfortable... i am going batshit in thorold.... i need out...

I wanna get out of here
I wanna, I wanna get out of here
I gotta get out of here
I gotta get out of here
IgottagetoutahereIgottagetoutahereIgottagetoutahere
Ya gotta let me out of here
Let me outta here
I gotta get outta here
Let me outta here
I gotta get outta here
Let me outta here
I gotta get outta here

frustation is filling my soul.. there are some positives but right now the confusion over 3 destinies is clouding everything... it should be interesting to see the next move on the chess board will be... the games and the mental instabilty are to the forefront... the next month of communication should be interesting and/or tell us nothing at all. i cover myself and my brood in positivity and no one can afffect that when we are together. hopefully i move soon... somewhere.. else.

cheers to wherver the future takes us.

Current Mood: positive

Current Music: Devil in a Midnight Mass, Billy Talent.

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