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Frustration.

here we go agian, Fucking Bullshit Mindgames Round 2. of course this is nothing new,

The program for this evening is not new
You've seen this entertainment through and through
You've seen your birth your life and death
You might recall all of the rest
Did you have a good world when you died?
Enough to base a movie on?.


when i no longer have the words to express anything and have to resort to quoting morrioson to express whatever i think i have to say, what does that make me, a Cypher? I am sick of the endless game as it revolves around me, sometimes i feel just like a spectator watching everything change around me... i am sick of the hypocrisy.. I gave up everything to come home to a nothing world, a nothing place, my roots ain't here.. my life ain't here, the games are the only thing here, i just want to quit.

Current Mood: Frustrated, i want to punch something in the face.

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