Skip to main content

Dead Like Me.


one down (toronto)and another one to go (fonthill). i remeber the person that used to live in this city, i'm not him anymore. wandering around the downtown esp. younge and queen reminded of how much i have distanced myself from the young man that i used to. i guess responsibilty can do that to a man. hoping one of these permanent jobs comes thru. i'm sick of dealing with burucratic nonsense. i have better things to do with my time. looking forward to tommorow and the positiveity that is going to come with it. hoping for this job (covenant House) but i'm not ruling out a return to Niagara if the right offer comes along.

this week has been interesting to say the least haven't seen home in the last 5 days and i won't till monday or tuesday next week... at least if i'm out of the house it means progress and $$$, even if i have a few sleepless nights and/or days.

we'll have to see what come's next.
Current Mood: Wet.
Current Music: Aerosmith, Ragdoll.

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

The Laugh Track.

  I want you in my life. Don't ever fucking confuse that for needing you in my life. Those two things are mutually exclusive to each other. I'm fine with my life and it's not my freind's and my social life that I'm jealous of. We both made our choices. My life has always been an insane carnival. You were merely an extended chapter. But if you think I'm going to sit at home being sad and depressed and shutting down because your not in my life. Your delusional. Then agian we already know this. If my life is going to be a sad comedy then I'll make it a metal massacre. I'm not sitting around waiting for anyone. The least of all you.  I sacrificed enough time on the altar of what might have been. I'm just enjoying the time that we have left. This way if it go out, it's on my own terms. I always told you that my funeral pyre will be a blaze of glory.. I just never told you when.  Now I'm gonna live and have adventures. Remain jealous. You know how ...

51.

Happy birthday.  Hope you are happy and enjoying yourself. I like that we are civil and communicating but i also think you need to take some introspective time and decide the next step. I want you to be happy whether or not I am a part of your life. And i am trying very hard to be. Today, this weekend. I just want to talk to you, hear you laugh..maybe even see you smile. Thats all i want. For you to enjoy your day and hear happy Birthday from me and my son. Thats all you need..to know you are loved. Happy Birthday Baby. You are always loved. No matter what. Unconditional.