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Happy New years: 2009 a better year?



good riddance to one of the stuopidest years in recent memory, at least i have had the last week and my son to buffer out all the negative energy and stupidity that was around me, it was kind of cool to just sit at home and play with toys and watch the same Thomas movie over and over and over and over and over agian for new years day. we ordered pizza that night and we were happy and then the next day we went to see his cousins in the east end and he got all wore out which was perfect for mommy the next day.. sometimes it's easier to ride out the bullshit and wait until you can actually deal with and do something about it rather than trying to save the world all on your lonesome when it's a holiday, people are cruel and do things in cruel fashion to make points and usually someones got to be the example to make the other idiots fall back into line... i am aware of the reason and why and when it was done but it doesn't make it any more legal or fair... of course i'm still happy, one of my freinds brought over some canadian last night to celebrate my first saturday off in 6 months so i was happy last night.

I will tell you this tho.. Job or Job after this week with my son... I will never ever make a xsacrifice agian to give up weekends with him... i have a reliable babysitter for any shift i can work on the weekends but it's ridiculous to have him go without me except for small thursday night visits for months at a time, he needs me and he loves me and that was evident this week.. he was totally being daddys little boy this week.

Current Mood: is it possible to be happy and depressed at the same time?

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