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War!!!!


it's fucking time for this bullshit to end, i am only playing nice for so fucking long. it's surprising that i have to go to war with the army but really are we so surprised.. i was treated like shit for the entire duration and now i can't even get a final pay? yeah i really wanted to make a career with those assholes. the battle lines are drawn and it's time to go on the offensive. my patience is wearing thin, i have a fucking child to take care of. this is ridiculous it has been three weeks. i wonder what Brantford social services would think of my opinion of my former employer not to mention i am in toronto today, maybe it mightbe a good idea to call payroll since apperently my conversation on the phone last week accomplished little or nothing. go figure... me at loggerheads with a pseudo religious military organizations... man kills, god loves, you can always tell who's really running things when it comes to faith based charities, it's all about the almighty dollar not the almighty. that's ok, i know who andd what i am, when it comes to faith, i look south, i'm going to hell, whos coming with me???


Current Mood: Pissed Off

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