One is having difficulty acknowledging the two seperate natures of my job.. one has the fact that i am being a good role model for the kids that aren't having issues and doing fun things and hanging out on the couch watching movies and other little things we do.... and then there is the part where i have to be big nasty ogre when someone is being disructive and wants to rope everyone else in the house into his negativeity.. i can't switch from being one thing to another so easikly esp. when it's been a good day.. i end up going home angry at myself for a million reasons inculding losing my temper.. and then i lose sleep... which is so healthy.. seems like everything is tied up when i leave there inside and i am supposed to go on with life and refresh for a new shift with a smile on my face and forget yesterday and it's issues... which i do... but it's frustrating to have to deal with the same issue everyday and it's always me that ends up being the bad guy...
I believe whatever doesn’t kill you, simply makes you…stranger.
Current Mood: Confused.
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