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REST IN PEACE!!!


Celebrating my birthday today with a very special occasion... it's too bad my ex is still a cunt and i can't even see my little one thursday cuz we are back to playing wonderful games but i am strarting to consider him more than my employment... i need a break and i'm not going to kill myself or sacrifice the only true family i have for a job that is stressful.. it's time to take care of my own fucking kid not anyone elses esp. around birthdays and holiday times.. games are always played and i always rise above them like a grim reaper on a holy mission.... my patinece seems to wear thin at times but i know that i am the better person and she is just being petty and lame because it's all she can do anymore to get under my skin...of course i should be taking the little one to go see his first wrestling show tonight but it's probaly a good idea i don't.. she'd accuse me of corrupting his little mind... yeah because i watched Hulk hogan with my Dad and i turned out so fucking horrible... happy birthday to me.. 2 days late... thanks for the bullshit.

Current Mood: excited for WWE, pissed off at she who shall not be named.

And as I hung up the phone it occurred to me,
He'd grown up just like me.
My boy was just like me.

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