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Death Of Cybertron.

As far as I'm concerened as soon as one of my good freinds i paid back everything that I owe him from stock, I am done with the TOY show thing permanently...there isn't a major show till january and anything of major importance that needs to take up my fucking time is isn't until may, this is becoming a drain instead of anything fun or anything worthwhile, it costs more, and this is yet another major show where I didn't get paid.. however thanks to another freind being true to his word and two of the gentlemen pictured aboved, i did well enough that being paid was a moot point, still it doesn't matter... i have other options, responsibilties and priorities, this thing did what it was meant to, and i only stayed on this long to deal with the fact that i was owed a lot of things post tf con. I'm doing sacrificing for other people who's intrest's and agenda's arent mine.. I take care of myself, I can help you i am grateful to, but i need to mercanary and cynical... i have to make me and the child that i love more than this universe it'self the priority, that goes for everyone in my life.. stand with me or agianst me, or get the fuck out of the way... i have dealt with for the moment everyhting i need to and on one hand i am just waiting.. tick tock for a decision that will start the road back to my normal life.. on the other hand, I'm waiting for you to be predictable... as of today in term's of my responsibilty, i have done what has been asked of me. it's on you, but you're frucking predictable... this is going to fun few months of chess.... please do what everyone expects you to... you're recent actions have already betrayed you... just add fuel to the fire... thanks.

Current Mood: Tired.
The only thing the matters is the mission...Batman.

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