This drawing to a close on this toy bullshit and While it has been a worthwhile endeavor it has also stripped the bones from my back. it has been fun but it has also been a huge pain in the ass full of politics, bullshit and thieves... there are ten days till this thing either pays off or falls flat on my face, a calculated risk I am more than willing to take.. but the plan is to end where I began with nothing... i don't want to continue paying for a locker that I don't care about, I am just waiting for the albatross to leave my neck, I don't harbor any regrets as It has provided for the last few years but there is a time and a place for it to end and the fact is, it's not a core or defining part of me.. it was just an interesting experience.. the decisions I have to make at this point is what I want to have and what I want to keep. I am seriously considering liquidating everything and only keeping a select few items... I have ten days, it's time for me to build towards finishing this game and having a profit for the first time In over three years, While I am glad i didn't walk away from the clusterfuck that was last year, this year there is one left past this and that's only If i don't completely clear all the important crap that's left behind.. i have real things in this life to focus on, and it's time to start doing that. I don't want to do the preparation and all the work involved in the next week and i expect to spend most of the next week just putting stuff in boxes and getting ready to close this chapter in my life.. for good.
Current Mood: Depressed.
I'd rather you all hate me for everything I am than love me for something I'm not.
Good conquers evil — It just takes a lifetime to see the final score.
I realise now that it will take time. That the road is long and shrouded in darkness. It is a road that will not always take me where I wish to go. But I will travel down it, nonetheless.
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