Shattered Glass: The End.

When someone puts an end to something, it doesn't mean that he gave up, it means that thing is not taking him anywhere.

It's better to burn out than to fade away.

This is It, there is a reality that this adventure is going to be over soon, Long after I have become bitter and have lost any semblance of interest in the entire process, it had it's moments both good and bad, and above and beyond it was always fucking Interesting, but the reality is aside from a few things that i will place into a glass coffin and the things i choose to buy going forward, after the holidays there will be nothing left of it. as much as i want to claim that i care, truly I do not. all this ever was, Was a means to an end, And now it's ending but the other major concern in my life isn't. I will enjoy whats left but whatever is left over, including some of the important things because of moments, will be left to remember, Hopefully there will be a few things to stand and remember that this wasn't just a fools errand to survive, these things have to stand for something... I want a few left for him to know the last few years he wasn't forgotten, It had to stand for something, even it's just a meory that i didn't get to share with him He was with me every step along the way...I would not have had any of this without him.

Current Mood: Tired.
Current Music:Breaking Benjamin - Dance with the devil

If something cannot go on forever, it will stop

We will all have an end to this journey one day, some will have a great ending some will have it bad, but it’s the journey that they take that matters, in the end.

Sometimes, the embers are better then the campfire. It's strange, but it's true

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Fall Of Cybertron III: Where’s Poochie.

It is very easy for me to fade away and just get bored of other people and politics when games are played. I’m not even fucking blinking when someone else who I’ve done things for, constantly for months with no rewards suddenly forgets I exist. That’s real easy for me to fucking deal with. Con politics, games, asshole people that don’t pay there Fuckin promises from day one? Don’t call my number. I stepped away from this shit once on my own. I have no fucking problem doing it again. I feel used and betrayed, but for me it was a Tuesday. I suspect jealousy and politics but I also know when to stick a fork in something when it’s done. I’ve got no interest being around anyone that doesn’t want me involved in there little cliques. I mean this thing was fun but from day one it was political. I don’t need stress and drama in my life. I can hang up my Wizard robe and move the fuck on. I did a great job of it on my own anyways. I don’t look amateur hour like the rest of them. And I no longer

Fuel Injected Suicide Machine.

Pissing me off is never a good fucking option. I have a life and I don’t need to make fucking sacrifices for anyone if I choose not to. I’m getting real fed up with simply being expected to do and arrange things so someone else can have a fucking escape. This is starting to become a fucking pattern in my life. Some I choose to do for, but others, when I’m starting to notice a fucking pattern? I’m gone. I will always be gone. The fact I have yet to step foot in England when I have a secondary place to stay should speak volumes in terms of this freindship and how it’s no longer even. I’m sick of things only being halfway when I’m trying with certain fucking people and I can bail and close ranks and not give a flying fuck about anyone anymore when I’m not being treated with respect esp. given to mine and my brothers financial situation. I don’t mind making sacrifices but I’m still going to make sure that my main fucking priorities are taken care of. I’m not going to pretend to keep th

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