Shattered Glass: The End.

When someone puts an end to something, it doesn't mean that he gave up, it means that thing is not taking him anywhere.

It's better to burn out than to fade away.

This is It, there is a reality that this adventure is going to be over soon, Long after I have become bitter and have lost any semblance of interest in the entire process, it had it's moments both good and bad, and above and beyond it was always fucking Interesting, but the reality is aside from a few things that i will place into a glass coffin and the things i choose to buy going forward, after the holidays there will be nothing left of it. as much as i want to claim that i care, truly I do not. all this ever was, Was a means to an end, And now it's ending but the other major concern in my life isn't. I will enjoy whats left but whatever is left over, including some of the important things because of moments, will be left to remember, Hopefully there will be a few things to stand and remember that this wasn't just a fools errand to survive, these things have to stand for something... I want a few left for him to know the last few years he wasn't forgotten, It had to stand for something, even it's just a meory that i didn't get to share with him He was with me every step along the way...I would not have had any of this without him.

Current Mood: Tired.
Current Music:Breaking Benjamin - Dance with the devil

If something cannot go on forever, it will stop

We will all have an end to this journey one day, some will have a great ending some will have it bad, but it’s the journey that they take that matters, in the end.

Sometimes, the embers are better then the campfire. It's strange, but it's true

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

The Laugh Track.

I want you in my life. Don't ever fucking confuse that for needing you in my life. Those two things are mutually exclusive to each other. I'm fine with my life and it's not my freind's and my social life that I'm jealous of. We both made our choices. My life has always been an insane carnival. You were merely an extended chapter. But if you think I'm going to sit at home being sad and depressed and shutting down because your not in my life. Your delusional. Then agian we already know this. If my life is going to be a sad comedy then I'll make it a metal massacre. I'm not sitting around waiting for anyone. The least of all you. I sacrificed enough time on the altar of what might have been. I'm just enjoying the time that we have left. This way if it go out, it's on my own terms. I always told you that my funeral pyre will be a blaze of glory.. I just never told you when. Now I'm gonna live and have adventures. Remain jealous. You know how ...

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Happy birthday. Hope you are happy and enjoying yourself. I like that we are civil and communicating but i also think you need to take some introspective time and decide the next step. I want you to be happy whether or not I am a part of your life. And i am trying very hard to be. Today, this weekend. I just want to talk to you, hear you laugh..maybe even see you smile. Thats all i want. For you to enjoy your day and hear happy Birthday from me and my son. Thats all you need..to know you are loved. Happy Birthday Baby. You are always loved. No matter what. Unconditional.

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