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The Chess Game X: Endgame?


Crazy people always think they're perfectly sane. It's what makes them so crazy; their entire delusion lies within the fact that they believe they aren't deluded.

At the end of the day this is a battle between me and you over heart and the soul of our child, period, everyone else is just a pawn in the fucking game.. there is some sweet vindication to knowing that when you're next opening chess move was to burn another bridge and show your true colors... Nothing's over yet but i am a lot less angry and a lot more determined than i was yesterday..... and that's due to your decisions shortly after court, there has to be an end to this and I think that you are doing what you have always done and been fucking predictable, and this time it's going to blow up in your face... the walls are falling down and you are cornered, and the best part, you're doing it to yourself. I had no part in the decision you made yesterday.this needs to have an ending and i think for once your actions have spoken louder than words and give me hope that this battle will not go on forever.. because as much as it's about me and you and the people and pawns for every chess move we both put forward, at the end of the day it's only about that young man, who when this started was a little boy.. Time works against you, remember that when it's time for Judgement.

Welcome to The Endgame, Bitch

Current Mood: Solace in Vindication.

You know damned well why we're doing this. Because it's a fight. It may be THE fight. It may be the final fight. And what else are we good at, you and me? What are we going to do if we ever get out there anyway?

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