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The Beginning Is the End Is the Beginning


We cannot be sure of having something to live for unless we are willing to die for it.

When one wonders if he should take the law into his own hands, that's not a safe environment for anyone involved. It doesn't fucking matter I have to continue, with or without assistance. I am never fucking backing down. But I am not happy that one of the people that I trusted to handle this case for the last six years has unequivocally fucked me.. The writings been on the wall for years... And this particular course of action was not unexpected... But it still fucking sucks. But I've been alone against the world before, so be it... For the sake of my son, I'd fight the denizens of hell. I'm not giving up, I'm not backing down. I don't give a fuck if I have to do it alone. Even at the point I lose faith and stop giving a shit, I don't back down and will not back down. This is my burden, my battle and my cross to bear. It has to be done... It cannot be abandoned. It will not be. This is about character and at the end of the day him knowing I fought and never backed down. But I don't like looking at the darkness ahead alone... But things don't end because I am alone... I don't stop.

I have no fucking time for anyone who doesn't have my back 100% completely. I'll walk away from them no matter the cost. I've done so before. I have no problem doing so agian. there is only one person I refuse to walk away from, point blank that's it... the rest of the world, if it comes down to it.. I'll see it burn, as long as she burns with it. there is no way that this is how it ends, I am fed up and I am waiting, But it's time to move forward....being patient has never been one of my calling cards anyways...

Current Mood: Depressed, Angry

Many will call me an adventurer, and that I am... only one of a different sort: one who risks his skin to prove his truths.

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