Fear 2.0: The Slow Path

War is not heroic. War is not exhilarating.

It is dark. It is dreadful. It is a thing of sorrow and gloom.
That is why people fear war. That is why people choose to avoid it.

If I intimidated you then I did my job to get this going in the right direction. I'm not about to stop or backdown. This has always been about me and you, and not him. Somehow, somewhere, someone needs to change that. I've got a mean streak a mile long and I am never going away. The knowledge that you fear and are intimidated by my is merely empowering and shows exactly who is truly in the wrong here.

It's a chess game and I'm in for the long haul. You are not the only one that knows how to play the long game. You want to throw curveballs? Cool, I can deal with that. I'll start throwing punches. I'm not backing down from you, your friends or anyone. It's time for the long game, you know how to play it better than anyone, but I've been playing this game with you just as long. I'll see it to the end, and I don't plan on losing. You're attempt at intimidation is amusing and shows me exactly how pathetic you truly are. It's just another pawn in this game, you'll discard as soon as it meets your needs. I'm about to make your life hell, and I will have no sympathy, regret or compunction a about doing so. You want to cut out my heart, I'm gonna eat yours.

I'm not a nice person, and sometimes I don't have to be. Everything you've taken from me, can and will one day be taken from you, I'm willing to wait and be patient and take the slow path, because there is only one ending that will ever apply.

Current Mood: Merely Annoyed, Determined.

Fear has no brains; it is an idiot.

Comments

Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Bad Man.

I am not a good man, I tell people straight out that I’m not a good person. I know I’m toxic. But I embrace being the villain and being the bad guy. Being feared is better than being loved because at least that way you respect me. When it comes to someone I care about and have a responsibility to, I will always choose them over others fucking bullshit and drama. This isn’t a choice. This is my life. Period. I live it every damn day. I’m not Making any other choices. I will always choose those that I care about over people that are merely in orbit in my life and if you give me a reason to fucking doubt you? I will give u a reason to fucking fear me. I’m just fed up, my world doesn’t need complications. My peace and my piece of mind doesn’t need complications. I have enough of those I struggle against in my personal life. This is the end game, and the end times. I deserve to be fucking happy. No one is getting in the fucking way of that. Period.

The Dying False King.

I am a ghost and a spectre in a lot of peoples lives that I have touched. Some I shouldn’t be, and some I have willingly walked away for my own mental health. I’m starting to get to that point with many things in my life agian. I thought it would be easier to live a simple life and just have fun but I think it’s harder than when I worked my face off as a father. At least then my enemies didn’t pretend to be my freinds and the world wasn’t falling apart slowly. Just my world. I think I prefer whatever that was then compared to what the world is now. I have my own life and adventures and I don’t need anyone that doesn’t want or need to be in my life. I have fun with what I do and don’t let negative sources affect my life. If you’re gonna drag me down, I’ll be gone. That’s how it works. You’re not going to disturb my fucking peace. That’s what the metal shows are for. That is anger’s release. Plus to have fun.

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