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I AM FEAR.

You can figure out what the villain fears by her choice of weapons.

Nothing frightens me. I AM fear.


Last week was telling, how ever much I am frustrated by the family court system, I am not intimidated by it, And I am not afraid of it or you... however, you Fear me, which has much more to do with what you have done to me than anything that I have done to you.. that's telling... it's noticeable when others realize that this has been going on over a decade. No one, least of all my son should have any reason to fear me, but you, you have plenty, and it's all about you're emotions over the tangled web you have weaved.. you barely exist in my world except when you have to... i sleep very well at night knowing that you don't.

I intimidate you, and i give you reason to be scared, and that's not in my character at all... so how have i become the boogeyman in your mind and how much of that have you poisoned my son's mind as well? Their is no blood on my hands and my sin's are much cleaner than yours.. that being said.. it's going to be very soon you are exposed, and I am backed into a corner right now.. but for once it's not about you, not directly.. but it will be soon enough... I don't mind being an intimidating factor, and I don't honestly Give a fuck that you are afraid of me, It's a weakness, it gives me power. But there is no reason for it... that's on you...you have reason to fear me, but not from anything I've done... ask yourself why that is?

Current Mood: Determined.

I can certainly identify with The Villain. A Villain is someone who has a past, who is strongly opinionated, fearless, doesn't get intimated by anything, and went beyond suffering. It's an empowerment figure.

You mean that it’s not only what he does that makes him dangerous, but also what he feels justified in doing?

To a predator, fear indicates weakness.

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