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Refuse/Resist.

This is how I deal with the fact that I wasted my life and his in court with you, pretending that it was ever going to change. Nothing fun ever changed. We just wasted too many years being angry at each other rather than having fun memories and adventures. Now I’m doing them, so one day, for someone there will be stories to tell. That’s where things are now. I’m not angry and neither of us really won the war, but neither of us are completely comfortable being at peace either. At least when I go to the pit I can disappear into someone I used to be and forget some of my problems and wake up the next morning with an interesting fuckin story. That’s what I’m doing with my life, I can’t honestly say I care about what your doing with yours. When I’m needed I’ll be there but right now it seems very clear I’m not fucking needed.  I need an escape from my reality sometimes as I have some frustrating bullshit in it that doesn’t always help. I know my responsibilities. But I also know the skeleto
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The Pale King.

I do things alone because I have a life beyond Hamilton. In both directions, some days maybe even my Toronto connections are still the same ones I was running away for as a child. I have a group of people that I have fun with and it’s separate from every responsibility both current and historical. It’s nice to have that little escape every once in a while and just be Bones.  It’s who I started out as, it’s who I’ll likely be remembered the most as. I lived. I had fun and I did things.that’s all that’s left for me to accomplish. There are days i choose to do things and buy things just for me because there are fucking people that are financial drains on me and i cant count on others in my life when push comes to fuckin shove. I love my life and i love being there for the fucking ones i love but i swear to you there are moments in my fucking life when that all i had to take care of myself and maybe my son things were simpler than having people around. Anyone i do for now has my respect an

Brothers of the Road.

I am honoured to have you as my brother and to call you family. I enjoy doing our epic adventures and doing all this crazy shit we keep doing. I couldn’t have a better person at my side during all these adventures. If I was to have just one regret it’s we didn’t do more of this when we were younger. Things aren’t always perfect but I’m trying to make it so that you enjoy as much as you can and have all the experiences I have. Id rather do stuff at your side than alone you know that.  Im happy to celebrate your special day as much as I can and as epic as we can because we know time is limited. It’s about making sure we make these moments matter.  Happy birthday Brother.

I Am The Black Wizards.

I like who i am, I like the adventures I go on with those that I love. Today just felt right and there was no bullshit and no drama. Just start to finish mutual respect. I choose to be happy and I choose to not have drama and spend my life doing cool things. There are moments in my life that can be amazing and i am glad I choose peace in my life over the drama, I have enough of that in my back pages. And i don’t need any more of it. These moments are for me and the ones I love to be happy. As for today? Mission accomplished. Happy Birthday Brother. Every year is just gonna get bigger and better.

Freak on a Leash.

  Im still choosing me. I don’t need anyone in my life that drags me down. Im good with those I care about and vice versa. Anyone else in my life can come and go, that’s always been the pattern. I choose my own patterns. I chose my own adventures just like the fucking books from when we were kids.  I do things. I do all the things that’s my fucking nature. I don’t need a fucking partner for that. Although I will fucking admit the one I cared about in 2019 did cross my mind tonight. That was a fun night. But I’ve moved past her, and moved past anyone in my back pages. Either be in my fucking life or be history. Im perfectly Fucking happy flying solo, I have my crew i do things with and I’m fucking happy with or without them. I’m at peace without drama in my life and no one is going to change that. I’m going to enjoy who and whatever I am and where I go. Wherever I end up, I know I’m fine. I’ve fought my wars. I’m good with being at peace. I’m gonna stay here and do all the things I coul

The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And

I Choose Me.

I am happy. It is a rare day that I can say that I am completely happy. The best part of my day was someone from one of my dads favourite movies complimenting me on my beard. I got to meet a few childhood heros and spend time with some real friends… all of the other concerns just floated away. Just me being me with the people I care about here. That’s all I need in my life. I treasure and value my friend’s that make me happy. I don’t need anyone dragging me down. I need more happy days like today.  I like being me, I have fun adventures with those that I want to have adventures with. I don’t need it to be forced or feel like an obligation to get something. Im gonna live my life and make decisions for me and not have other’s opinions or problems affect me. I like this weird feeling. I feel normal. I feel happy. It’s not something I feel every day.