I break rules, I’m a rule breaker. This is how I live my life. I’m not real big on conformity. If you had my life why would you see any reason to colour within the lines and be a peaceful Member of society? I have fun and do stuff. I’ve never had what one would consider a normal life, why in the hell would I want to start one now? I’m not real big on conformity, my life thrives on chaos, even in a time I have some form of peace in my life, I still need my moments like these heavy metal shows I’m constantly at to remind me that at my core I’m still me, and to release some of the aggro and aggression o bottle up to keep those around me and those I care about safe. Doing things on my own terms rather than changing to trying to be the person someone else wanted is so much easier than changing to fit into a mold that I thought was wanted 25 years ago. That road only lead to chaos and pain anyways. I’m so much better being me, and letting peace lead me than chasing it.
I am a ghost and a spectre in a lot of peoples lives that I have touched. Some I shouldn’t be, and some I have willingly walked away for my own mental health. I’m starting to get to that point with many things in my life agian. I thought it would be easier to live a simple life and just have fun but I think it’s harder than when I worked my face off as a father. At least then my enemies didn’t pretend to be my freinds and the world wasn’t falling apart slowly. Just my world. I think I prefer whatever that was then compared to what the world is now. I have my own life and adventures and I don’t need anyone that doesn’t want or need to be in my life. I have fun with what I do and don’t let negative sources affect my life. If you’re gonna drag me down, I’ll be gone. That’s how it works. You’re not going to disturb my fucking peace. That’s what the metal shows are for. That is anger’s release. Plus to have fun.