If anyone thinks they can take advantage of me and the people I care about, they are sadly mistaken. I walk away from people I love because of their bullshit. Someone who is merely there in my life? Yeah, I’m fucking out. I don’t need emotional vampires that suck me dry in my life. I will walk away from anything and everything at this point. I no longer give a damn about anything other than myself when it comes to your opinion.
This decision and many others have been a long fucking time coming and to be honest I’m better off doing my own thing alone and solo. Because it’s better off for all involved. There’s still a temper and there is still the old me hidden underneath this attempt at seeking peace. I’m not a nice guy, I’ve never claimed to be a nice guy. And I’m not keeping my fucking mouth shut.
No one fucking uses me, Period. And thats all I’ve felt I’ve been over the last few years. By a number of people in my professional life and my personal life. So maybe at this moment it’s time to reevaluate where I stand and where I plan to be in this life long term. I’m definitely thinking some distractions I am better off without. And I will be happier for.
I’m not even angry anymore. Unless you give me reason to be. Doing that however is seriously your mistake. I really don’t like the person I become when I’m angry and I try to avoid it at all costs. But the old me is slowly creeping back into my personality, and the old me doesn’t care. The old me, is an eater of worlds. And the old me is a self defence mechanism to keep those and those I care about safe. So at this point… maybe it’s time to let the fucker out to play again.
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