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When you attack a person that actively supports me being with you because those are my choices and my emotions even tho she has her reservations about it, it’s not fair that you get to attack her and use her against me.  I’ll never allow you to attack my friend’s. It’s part of why we aren’t together. You can’t deal with the fact I have platonic non sexual femaleFreinds. Fucks sakes I grew up in a single parent home with my mom and sisters… why can’t I have female freinds? Because of your jealousy? You play that card I go radio silent. I don’t care even if you’ve put the carrot on the fish hook.


I love him, with all my heart. Some days I even do the same for you. But you’re not going to control me and tell me what to do, that’s why it fell apart in the first place and you destroyed my life for the first time.. all that social isolation.


And then you discarded me like a used toy. Like I was nothing. Now you want me to abandon some of the people that helped me

Pick up the pieces? No. Your lack of a support circle is not my problem. I have one and it’s a good one and I won’t let you push them away to have me yourself. Played that game before I refuse to agian.


Enjoy Jealousy. I’ll just go radio silent. 


You don’t get to be the biggest fucking problem in my life when I’m dealing with something bigger. I will never ever confide in you or ask for your opinion or help agian. I seriously wanted to never speak to you agian after that, and I havent decided if I will but you and your selfish little bubble are not the priority right now.


…and I know exactly what that might cost me. 

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