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Another New Day.

what kind of fucking Idiot has the ethical integrity of a Gnat when it comes to a sensitive date? people are fucking clueless in this city i swear... thank god i might have a chance to get out of this hellhole city with a job interview in welland today... lousy weekend... broke down crying because of it last night... that botttle of rum in fridge sure looked freindly last night.... it's not fucking fair.. not anymore... i'm sick of the prevailing attitude in st. catherines... esp. yours. sometimes i really wonder what the fuck your motives are... sometimes i don;t know what i'm doing here... wait i know exactly what i'm doing here.. spinning My heels doing exactly nothing... there's only one reason i'm here and you and i both now it... this current distraction will end.. and it has nothing to do with you... i will deal with it... maybe we'll do lunch today... i'll at least have a smoke later... does this sound like unintelligible gibberish? i'm in one of those weird mooods where i'm talking to my self... but i'm in my happy place... Niagara College 2001 was probaly the last time i was truly fucking happy with this trainwreck life...

Current Mood: Fucking Optomistic.
Current Music: Epic, Faith No More

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