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Queen of the Reich VI

It's getting closer to the time that is needed to be and that some of the unanswered questioned that remain something that need to be answered are going to be... I am sick of this battle, it's pretty sad when you are used to being broken down that it is the very thing that makes you strong... i revealed a side of myself today in talking about all the things that have been broken down from me in the last few years.. and it made me think, maybe that has been the purpose all along... If i can't have you and mold you the way I want, maybe then you want to destroy me and everything I hold dear... it's almost been ten years since I said goodbye for what I had hoped was the final time... it's time to show you for your true colors, and the only way to do that is to have patience and let you fail for everyone to see by your own fucking actions, not mine. It's never been about me anyways...except for you.

Current Mood: Determined.
You can stand tall without standing on someone. You can be a victor without having victims.

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