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Stalemate 2.0

This is only a game of Chess,
This is Only a Strategy game,
This Is only a War game... There has been no forward or background movement and we are stuck at basically what amounts to being a stalemate... it doesn't matter how hard I push forward or backwards... we are no closer to either one of us being the victor at any point, the only damage being done in this stalemate is to two lives maybe three that hang in the balance, only one of the those is important and I find it sad that one jealous and self centered person has taken it upon herself to destroy two other's lives... It's never been about any more than that for her, just gaining an advantage... as the wall's crumbles around her and the red queen starts to regard what has happened to her as epic fail... then the stalemate will break and maybe she'll be the one feeling remorse for what she's done... either that or He will grow up and hate one or both of us... But I know this... It has not been for nothing this battle.. and i know that I have not been the one to make the choice to continue this battle... But once engaged I will not back down, Nor walk away.... Not with the cost of what I would be sacrificing.

Current Mood: Sad.
I don't have to attend every argument I'm invited to.

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