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RAGE.

Yup, Another day And I'm still angry... I should not have to spend my days busking in sub zero temperatures so I don't have to worry about where my next meal is coming from, or Sacrifice by selling items bought for me and my child's enjoyment... it will hurt tomorrow selling his Thomas table, but the reality is that he had fun with it and he has outgrown it long ago... and I can't recover that lost time..it has been taken away, I'll just make it up to him for his birthday and Christmas this year... I am downsizing for a reason, If and when I make a choice to walk away I won't have lingering reminders of my former life here in Hamilton... That days not coming but It is always an option...It is always my choice to use this Anger and Rage to fight for the things I believe in, and the people I love instead of letting it destroy me...I don't know at this point what i would do without the Anger...it has it's uses...it helps me Survive... anything. At this point It drives me to get the things that need to be get accomplished.... I don't hide it and I don't behind smoke, Mirrors and illusions, It's always about who I am, And I have always been Angry.. I just let the rage like a knife get dulled for a few years... but it's back.. and it has returned with a vengeance and even when i have peace this time In my life and I am left with just another bloody victory even after all these tears have been shed, this time the Anger and Rage will Not be forgotten.

Current Mood: Angry.
Current Music: Within Temptation, Iron. (the war is Coming Bitch.)
Sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

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