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Time Machine.

It's very interesting to hear theories of time travel from two very similar but different little minds and have for different reasons two little innocent souls wanting to accomplish the same goals, it really gives an old embittered warrior who is very bitter a new perspective on things and I get it... I understand why they feel that way and where they are respectively in their lives and how both of them affect my life but it blows my mind how little things like wanting to make a time travel machine and go back in time can come out of a little persons mouth and to here it from two different ones with different concerns in their minds absolutely floors me.. it makes this battle i am fighting so much easier to bear when I realize that this isn't just a programmed or planted delusion in my little one's mind with all the exterior influences around and it's more just a normal part of a child thinking process's.... I am starting to think that this was a very good choice where i am staying, and once i get him home he will meet another little ego and he will become fast friends with him and his brother. from my perspective the world isn't ending as much these days, even tho sometimes it's bleak.. but not so much every day.

Current mood: Looking forward to the future.
The obstacles of your past can become the gateways that lead to new beginnings.

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