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Persistence of Time

Tick Tock, the days count down till the game has been changed, it's time to show you for you true colours and start making some positive changes in our life... I am truly sick of this battle and the fact that everything has been delayed to this point.. but then agian, I know exactly where I have always stood, between you and Him, the exact place you don't like because the less you control me is the less you can control him, but in doing so you place his little innocent soul in the balance, one of the things i never wished for was the my child would end up having to deal with the same broken family bullshit i endured, but instead you've made it worse, and the more I think about it it's by design not you're stupidity and bullshit and ignorance, i think it's been done on purpose, remember when he grows up, it won't be just me he hates. the one gift i will be able to give him them is every record about how I tried and fought, and never stop fighting. it is only thru the persistence of time that this will end... and not in a good light for you.

Current Mood: Depressed, Determined.
Current Music: Master of Puppets, Metallica

It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.

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