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The Game..

It was like when you make a move in chess and just as you take your finger off the piece, you see the mistake you've made, and there's this panic because you don't know yet the scale of disaster you've left yourself open to.

Sometimes I have to do things like tonight to remind myself that I am normal and just angry and depressed and driven once in a while to maintain my sanity. it hopefully will be the lasttime i attend something like that without my son and his presence was felt and missed tonight.. we will see what the next month or so goes, but tonight would have been an experince he would have enjoyed, and i really missed the fact he wasnt there..seeing something that i have been into snce i was a child and shared with him before,i really missed him tonight. hopfully tonight is the last time i do something epic and interesting without him,the next few months will prove the reality of that. i needed to recharge and tonight helped with that. it was nice to see some favorite wrestlers and experince it alone but it would have been better with company. i missed my best freind as well given that relationship started with a mutual love of the wwe, it would be cool to duplicate this experince with him as well. there are things on the bucket list that have to been done...but i've taken my moment to escape reality only for a moment.its time to focus on what i have to do now, time enough for the fun stuff later.

Current Mood: Happy, Tired

How dreadful...to be caught up in a game and have no idea of the rules.

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