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Fuck Easter...




I hate this holiday, I have my reasons. 


I’m sorry kid, I really tried this year like I do every chance I have every time she gives me an opportunity to attempt to be part of you’re life, but she’s selfish and her attitude is all or nothing even if it means it hurts you or I.  I will always try and I will always have hope but I am getting to the fucking point where I need to walk away and stop falling for her games.


All I want or need is my family back.... and that is constantly played with. I’m not going to endure it forever. You’re almost an adult, maybe one day you will see and understand... maybe one day she will figure it all out and what really matters...


But I don’t know how many more times I can pull the knife out of my back and continue to forgive you’re mother when she constantly gets my hopes up and betrays me, I love you both... but there is a limit to how long I can endure you’re mothers bullshit without walking away....


....there’s nothing for me here, and I don’t need to be here anymore. There has been anything here for me in ten years, since the moment she took you and everything else that was pure and good in my life away, all that’s left now is the darkness, hopefully it will never infect you....


....but I think because of her you have enough darkness in you’re life already without me.

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