I don’t need anyone. Anything i have ever done I always did alone. Not with help. Not for charity. Just me. I spent 5 years of my life doing epic shit that networked me a million connections and experiences and that was all fucking me. Not fair weather asshole freinds, not people who claimed to love me... just me, in my darkest hour making choices not to be a defeat, I am the concrete the Rose grew from. I’m harder than most. I don’t give up easily. But I do it alone. Because that’s who I am. It’s probably time to close doors and withdraw and go back to the person I used to be and only be about me and my responsibilities at this point in life.
I’ve always done things alone, just because I had a few luxuries due to relationships the last few years doesn’t mean I need them or want them. I can do my own adventures and do just as many things alone. I am closing quarters and making the world a lot smaller.
One day I may withdraw completely with a sea change, but it’s disappointing to see how many in my life and my inner circle disappoint me. That’s why I try not. You can’t ever put that shit on me, not the way I can put it on you.
When I am truly angry and done with someone you don’t get the courtesy of my anger or my wicked tongue, you get silence. You cease to exist to me. I have had many years of ignoring someone to perfect my technique. You can be erased from my life in an instant.
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