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K.I.N.G.



 



You look for evil in people, sooner or later you'll find it. Even when it wasn't there in the first place.


I stand, even if I am standing alone. I fought my battles, I fought my wars... I am no less a man for choosing to lose them. I fought till the battle was over. Then I decided that peace and presence of mind were more important. I hang on to that scrap of truth, hoping desperately that it’s true and I just didn’t quit because I had completely lost.


But I live my life like I own it, because I do. I am a king in my own mind and I don’t have to pretend to be someone I’m not or treat anyone as beneath me like you do. My emotions are on my sleeve, as certain as the dagger in my pocket. I won’t change the person I am to every please anyone else.


Unfortunately that will probably always include you. I will always be you’re King, but I sit upon a broken throne. One you have destroyed constantly. Even forgiveness does not forget that fact.


The best revenge is living well, but that rings hollow when one no longer wants revenge. I just want to live my life in peace and no longer fight any more battles that need to be won. I laid my sword down. I fought long enough. And that my freind is the true mark of a king. Not knowing when to fight, but knowing when not to.


The battle is over. There is no longer any fight to be won. Any further engagement good or bad will just be futile. Instead I will just enjoy my life. I’ll enjoy my peace, a peace you can never take away from me. I won’t let you.


I have one regret. I regret ever coming to this place with the assumption that a reconciliation could be found. That reason could be a bridge between us. Everyone is a monster to someone. Since you are so convinced that I am yours, I will be it.

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