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New Year’s Evil II




 




I am happy, I am doing my own things and dealing with my current responsibilities and making his life better. No matter what anyone else thinks. I wish things were different but I’m enjoying my life as things are, and I will continue to do so.


I do amazing things at a drop of a dime and I can figure out how to do epic adventures or memories with just a little bit of planning. I don’t have a need for

Material things anymore. I wish I could share my adventures with those who mean the most, but that’s only measured in ounces. If you are in my life, you’re in my life...


... if you want to hang out on the fringes of my life and come an go that’s on you. I’m gonna live, I’m gonna hang with the people that are in my life. And we are going to do all the cool shit.


Because I don’t care about tommorow, I’m living for today and I’m living like this might be the last one, every single Day.


Everything I do right now, I’m having fun and I’m less miserable and depressed than I have been in years. 


That’s why I do them. It’s not a distraction or a way to hide my pain. It’s just an adventure and a way of having fun....


After all the battles and all the bullshit in my life I’ve earned that. I’m finally at a peace No one can take

Away... and trust me some and there drama have tried. And I’m enjoying my little life with the ones I’ve never taken for granted or ever will.


Things aren’t perfect

And never will be. But that doesn’t mean this fractured fairytale I call my life can’t be a fucking rollercoaster ride...


Till next year....

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