It’s time for me to embrace the darkness again. I have no faith in this world when all I stand on is a pile of shit. The only time I have any positive change in my life or get motivated is when I’m angry and I hate the world. It’s time to go back to being that person. He knows how to take care of himself.
He’s a cold uncaring motherfucker that will bring a machine gun and bucket of ammunition to destroy his maker.
The one that he learned at a young age doesn’t exist. I’ve always been a better person when I embrace the fact that it will always get worse and not better. Hatred, resentment, a violent temper. These are things in this world that actually have meaning.
I’d rather prepare to burn and embrace being evil on my level than pretend I have changed and keep trying to be a nice person. I’m a good person and I’m not a monster. But I am not a nice person. I’ve never been a nice person and I have no intention of changing that.
My darkness has always protected me and those I love. I have never hidden the fact that I reject any faith, including the hope I so desperately want to be able to have. Because it’s all an illusion and a motherfucking lie.
I’ve accepted what I am. It’s time the rest of the world does.
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