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Bat out of Hell III: Back into Hess


Old behaviors die hard and sometimes disapeering into the community of stupidity and making a little bank to pay bills, have a few beers and smoke a little something soimething is a good stress reliver. it's too bad i have only had a number of fridays or saturdays to go out recently.. i'm glad i went busking into hess village tonight... it reminded of who I used to be and where i was happiest.. i make that happen, not a woman, not a job. for the most part that happiness had been replaced by another happiness with the little one, but when it's summer and i have a negotable shedule with everything it's probaly not a bad idea if i continue to use this as a stress reliver if i have an evening free... esp if i also have the morning free. pretty girls, an audience for my music and lyrics and something to do instead of sitting at home playing xbox. it was an awesome night.

Current Music: Should I Stay or Should I Go? The Clash
Current Mood: Fucking Happy.

Never compromise. Not even in the face of Armageddon.

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