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Confusion.


SO anyways... i am wondering what the hell is going on in my life agian.. i am finding things are agian becoming anarchy in my personal and professional lives? what the fuck is with having my shifts cut back to nothing.. fuck lay me off already... at least that way i'd have to go get EI instead of begging on my hands and knees to the fucking goverment.. i'm in love with that... please help me pay the rent so i can afford to go to work... and of course.. if not i'm homeless when i finally found something i can stay at long term with just enough room.

One however must wait and expect the other shoe to drop at the same time however, St.Catherines isn't answering, i'm glad i'm not there in person but i'd like to be able to discuss options with all this goddamn freetime off esp. with the fact that the cottage may or may not be a possibilty if things pick up at work.. at this point...i can't afford to take a vacation.. so we will see if we go this year... maybe it's better that people aren't around me today... i'm fucking Miserable.. maybe i'll get my paycheque and drink the four beers in the fridge and go see transformers and not give a shit about the world... gotta make sure everythings Kosher with my little man and next week tho. i will fiogure it all out but right now i need to explore every and any Options.

Current Mood: Miserable.

Happiness is a prison. Happiness is the most insidious prison of all.

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