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Full Circle.


it's interesting to see that ones end up with a certian set of books about a certian lone drow elf every 5 years, this has to be one of the first times in years that even tho money is tight i am slowly becoming at peace with myself, i remeber the last time, it was about now 2004. while there are still conccerns and issues to deal with, and there is a diffrent set of heartache and expectations arounds my next steps it's reassuring to know that some things can still keep me grounded and more than happy. I wish i could see and feel the future but i can't so i have to leave the adventure beyond and let it pull me wherever it's going to take me, there's decisions to be made but they can pass by until the new year, i'm going to enjoy this current state as long as it lasts.

Current Mood: At Peace with Oneself.
Currently Reading: Homelands, R.A. Salvatore.

Christmas gift suggestions: To your enemy, forgiveness. To an opponent, tolerance. To a friend, your heart. To a customer, service. To all, charity. To every child, a good example. To yourself, respect

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