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The Fire Burns,

I know who I am, I know who the man I am at my core, I know what my beliefs and ethics are and always have been, I know the bridge that has to be burned and what it has cost me emotionally to be this detached and letting the burning bricks fall where they may, but i am the ashes in that fire, reborn as i always have been in this life...you may have to kill me to keep me down but there's no gaurentee of that as long as i have a heartbeat i will stand and fight... even when the bones ache and the battle is too goddamn long... there is no choice, this is who I am, this is who i always have been, there's a fire inside me, every trial every tribulation, has brought me to this exact point in my life.. i am stronger for it... I can fight this battle, I can see it through to the logical conclusion, there is a reason for the light at the end of the tunnel... there always has been... but before the end of the day i will see you burn, and I will supply the gasoline.... this is only the beginning of the battle... this is only the first strike... plenty more to go.. No Detente, No Surrender, NO sacrifice, No victory... this is who I am, this is who i need to be... this is the only thing that keeps my heart burning, as long as that little piece of my soul is missing i will not be complete, But i will fight to regain it always... as long as i have that, for this war, that's all I need.

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: Within Temptation - Paradise (What About Us?) ft. Tarja
I shall die here. Every last inch of me shall perish. Except one. An inch. It's small and it's fragile and it's the only thing in the world worth having. we must never lose it, or sell it, or give it away. We must never let them take it from us.

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