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Amityville: The Return



I am sitting around doing my own thing while other's questionable actions affect my life and I wonder how much of this fighting is worth it, and which decisions in my life need to made so I can very clearly protect those i care about, when i think the safest decision is to walk away even tho i do care about people in my life, I will not endanger them, even tho the risks were spelled out very early on in the decision making and i covered our asses legally, I'm not the one that has anything to fear.. the lives of innocents lie in the balance, and they've already taken everything precious from me... they will not do that to another, i don't care, that life of hell is not something i wish on anyone, my child, my nieces or nephew's or my friends children, i will fight and if i can't or am not allowed to fight i will walk away, i will not make another's lot in life worse just to make mine better. just because i am not ruled by my emotions and my fears doesn't mean i don't understand when others are.. i just have a thicker fucking skin, of course I've seen hell in the void and it's looks back and been afraid of me...

Current Mood: Depressed, Angry.
Current Music: Metallica - Wherever I May Roam

Those who can make you believe absurdities can make you commit atrocities

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