The Great Darkness Saga II

Still not having a lot of fucking patience with the situation and the more i get bothered about money that doesn't exist yet is the more i start thinking about moving on from this clusterfuck. this fucking ass clown just doesn't get that part of the problem with the old place was the choice to choice to use my house for storage, and now he can't find fucking shit he moved to my house? one day i might just lock the door and make all of his shit disappear, just like the stuff of mine he took to his place apparently did.. i swear i like the money but I don't need half of the fucking stress, and it's completely frustrating that he just doesn't care about anything that doesn't belong to him, just money.. it seems like this is the type of person i attract, it's frustrating that i can find opportunities in my life but they always constantly turn into clusterfucks and end up affecting me personally. maybe it's time to go back to being angry and mean and not caring, if other people don't give a damn it's time for me to do exactly the same... no more being honest or being fair... it's time to be the dirtball i know i can be... I'm sick of the selfishness surrounding me.

Current Mood: Frustrated.
Current Music: Eminem, Rap God.
What do you despise? By this are you truly known.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Fall Of Cybertron III: Where’s Poochie.

It is very easy for me to fade away and just get bored of other people and politics when games are played. I’m not even fucking blinking when someone else who I’ve done things for, constantly for months with no rewards suddenly forgets I exist. That’s real easy for me to fucking deal with. Con politics, games, asshole people that don’t pay there Fuckin promises from day one? Don’t call my number. I stepped away from this shit once on my own. I have no fucking problem doing it again. I feel used and betrayed, but for me it was a Tuesday. I suspect jealousy and politics but I also know when to stick a fork in something when it’s done. I’ve got no interest being around anyone that doesn’t want me involved in there little cliques. I mean this thing was fun but from day one it was political. I don’t need stress and drama in my life. I can hang up my Wizard robe and move the fuck on. I did a great job of it on my own anyways. I don’t look amateur hour like the rest of them. And I no longer

Fuel Injected Suicide Machine.

Pissing me off is never a good fucking option. I have a life and I don’t need to make fucking sacrifices for anyone if I choose not to. I’m getting real fed up with simply being expected to do and arrange things so someone else can have a fucking escape. This is starting to become a fucking pattern in my life. Some I choose to do for, but others, when I’m starting to notice a fucking pattern? I’m gone. I will always be gone. The fact I have yet to step foot in England when I have a secondary place to stay should speak volumes in terms of this freindship and how it’s no longer even. I’m sick of things only being halfway when I’m trying with certain fucking people and I can bail and close ranks and not give a flying fuck about anyone anymore when I’m not being treated with respect esp. given to mine and my brothers financial situation. I don’t mind making sacrifices but I’m still going to make sure that my main fucking priorities are taken care of. I’m not going to pretend to keep th

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