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The Great Darkness Saga

I am Angry at a lot of people right now, and it feels fucking useless how little i can express my rage at the moment, certian people are very selfish and only about themselves and I am starting to see how little i care about the situation, My belongings and my child's belongings are not something that can be casually brushed away and left sitting in a garage, I am severely frustrated by the callousness of how that situation is being treated when i make this buisness a shit load of money and I put a lot of effort and time into it, being stressed to make more and more money when i have seen so very little of it recently has me considering leaving the gig altogether, I'm not here to faciliate some manchild's collection habits and have my apartment used for fucking storage, i need to see some monetary benefits or this partnership will be at it's end, it would help if he took the time and energy to look for my belongings but that seems to be beyond his fucking intelligence as well... it's his fault that the situation i was in went where it went, and now i am just getting frustrated by a complete lack of respect... i could walk away and take all of this plastic crap and give it away to recover costs for as much as i currently give a damn, I have real things in my life to be angry about and give a damn about. that i am frustrated and stressed about this shouldn't be a place i am in... it used to be fun, then the roof collapsed and all i am getting out of it is the same old usual angst and anger, I shouldn't be this angry about this but i am, i don't like being taken advantage of nor will i be, I've said more than once if you don't get your shit together I will walk away from this, maybe it's time I'm seriously reeavulating that option, it's not worth being angry over petty things, and if my time and energy isn't respected there are other things i could be doing with said energy and time. I have other battles to fight in my life, this one won't become one of them i will walk away from it. if i am not seeing some benefits from this soon i am done. it's time to take stock of my life and take the people and things that I no longer need in it out of it.. I'm not going to go around the rest of my life in this fucking bottomless pit, too many have taken advantage or stabbed me in the back and tried to use it as the guise of freindship, it's time for me to be angry, it's time for a lot of the angry old me to return, its time to be selfish, it's time to be the unforgiving instead of the unforgiven. In moments a man can be judged for what he has or has not done, it's time for me to do the same with the relationships and responsibilities i currently Choose, Choose, not need to undertake at the current Time, If they no longer serve my purposes it's time to find myself another purpose.

Current Mood: Angry, Pissed off.
You can't go around building a better world for people. Only people can build a better world for people. Otherwise it's just a cage.

I had hoped to be disliked by most, not by way of rebellion, but by way of excellence, disdain for the habitual, and the common man’s inability to grasp this. The act of being scorned? I saw it as a victory, my irreverent boast against this world which could never fully quench me.

If a man dedicates his life to good deeds and the welfare of others, he will die unthanked and unremembered. If he exercises his genius bringing misery and death to billions, his name will echo through the millennia for a hundred lifetimes. Infamy is always more preferable to ignominy.

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