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Urban Warfare.....

Time for things to change, Time to go on full attack and end this.... I can't wait anymore.. as weary I am of being a warrior and Fighting battles. this is what I am meant for I am a warrior, i am a soldier, there is nothin else for me to do except win the battle, that's who I am, while at times i do tire of being the Warrior, being the War machine, being the soldier, I know that at the end of the day the only thing that will happen because of my reluctance to never surrender and never retreat is only better things... it's never been about anything but him, it will never be about anything but him, it's time to move the chess peices forward.. it's time fucking end this. there is nothing else... every thing else is/was a distraction. Time to end the game. Check mate.

Current Mood: Angry, Determined.
War is dark. Black as pitch. It is not a God. It does not laugh or weep. It rewards neither skill nor daring. It is not a trial of souls, not the measure of wills. Even less is it a tool, a means to some womanish end. It is merely the place where the iron bones of the earth meet the hollow bones of men and break them.

If life is a battle, then my inner scars are medals for valor, for swiftness, for courage, for passion. Evil is the dark-haired brother of Good; they walk hand in hand–always.

I'm just an ignorant warrior who believes love means you're willing to fight and die for your fellow living beings.

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