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Good Freinds, Better Enemies.



Only TRUE friends got your back when you're down. No matter the situation

On a happier note, even with all the turmoil right now in my life and me not knowing where i am going in the near future because i may making major life changes to fix some of the situations at hand it was nice to spend a day with an old freind that i have been close to forever and spend some time with him and his son watching the royal rumble last night, it was a nice break from the cold reality of my life and it harkened back to days spent with the same freind back in the day when things were a lot more innocent and a time when i was less damaged, bitter and cynical and jaded to the rest of the world, being able to forget a lot of lifes problems for a night did a lot for the anger residing within and the mental health, he only thing missing is the fact that my son should have been joining us, but it will come in time... but i am grateful and relieved to have family and freinds who have always had my fucking back and support and now with things eventually ending I can go back to be normal, Last night other than my yearly christmas visit was the first time in a long time i Had felt normal and happy in a very long time... I have great freinds, too bad i have better enemines that have consumed my life for far too long and i have let some of the relationships that should matter fall behind or crumble due to chasing the great white whale... it's time to fix some of that, yesterday was a definite start to some healing, this week will be even more.

Current Mood: Positive.
True friends share your deepest hurts.

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